Onward, to the things that matter.

A little start of the year reflection.

Well, here we are.

It's the first week of 2025 and my first post too.

To be honest with you, I've had a pretty hectic start to the new year.

Too many sessions, back-to-back, too many meetings to discuss upcoming plans.

But still, here I am.

And I'm taking some time tonight to go in a bit.

Really, just to get a sense of how I am.

First thought is this, that I'm tired.

Really, really tired (and somehow already falling behind in the things I need to do).

But second, I'm happy.

Yes, happy.

Right this moment, really I am.

Because amidst the tireness, it's been the kind of busy-ness that has gotten me really excited.

Like the plans we're making ahead for a walk-in peer-based crisis support that we hope to start ewrly this year at our centre in Bishan.

And workshops in the works on themes that really matter to me - like purpose, identity and deep healing.

Plus of course, catching up with all the people I look forward to catching up with - all the while seeing enormous strength in their vulnerability and growth.

I love it, absolutely.

I won't give this up for anything else.

But back to going inward.

Am I also scared about all that's ahead?

Heck yes.

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Because a big part of me really wants this to work. Not just for myself but for the people I care about.

But with this also comes possible criticism, the many naysayers, and, gasp, the thought that this would all fail and fall flat as well.

And that this would end up being a great waste of effort and time, not just for myself but everyone I've involved as well.

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Hello fear. I see you :)

You're the part of me that doesn't want us to plummet again.

That's perfectly valid, thank you for these concerns - I acknowledge them, I do.

But just like we've done in the past, we are embarking on things that matter to us.

And it's been an amazing journey so far hasn't it.

Just like putting our thoughts and feelings down through this yellow blob and a boy who is our past selves.

So can you see it?

Can you see that we have been courageous too?

You are part of me, fear.

But so is courage as well.

Take care,

Hernping

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#letskeepgoing

#dontgiveup

#courage